The Month of Bad News

So I don't really know how to start this. I guess I will start with the day that I backed our truck into my friends brand new car. Yes that was one fun day. I have never been in an accident before and for some reason it just really got to me that day. We were on our way out to the grocery store, and my friend had parked right behind the truck on the other side of the street. I was busy talking and making sure I didnt hit my brothers car next to the truck that I didnt even remember her car was behind ours. (The truck is so tall I couldn't see it in the rearview mirror) So I drilled a nice big dent into the back side of her car. She had just got it the week before, brand new. I was a wreck. I was crying and just completely beside myself. I was so embarrassed and upset with myself. We had no extra money and I was afraid it would make our insurance go up. Luckily I have accident forgivness so it made no difference on our insurance. When Josh got home from work he took me out to dinner to get my mind off of it. Thankfully it worked and by the time we went to bed my mind was car crash free.

That next morning I woke up and instatly remembered what had happened the day before and starting stressing again.... at least until I saw that I had 4 missed calls from Josh. I called him back and got his answer right away. He had just been laid off of work. Needless to say the car crash was the LAST thing on my mind anymore. I couldn't believe it. We had been worried off and on the last year about him losing his job due to the slow economy. But this was the one time we were pretty confident that his job wasn't in danger. Boy were we wrong! I didn't really know what to think. Thankfully I have a next door neighbor that was there to keep me sane and rational. I couldn't understand why it happened now. I know that the Lord has his own reasons and I'm not questioning his judgement. But we were finally back to going to the temple every month after 2 pregnancies and getting better and better at the daily things like reading our scriptures and saying family and personal prayers. And we were doing our VT and Home Teaching for the first time ever! I thought that we would be blessed more. But after talking to my Dad I realised that it wasn't a matter of if Josh was going to get laid off his job or not, it was a matter of when he got laid off. And I knew that if he would've been laid off any earlier we would not have been spiritually prepared for it. I don't think we would have fallen from the church or anything drastic like that. But I think the Lord waited until we were strong enough to get through it with a positive attitude and could make decisions with the Lord instead of irrational and desparate actions. We have been so blessed ever since his unemployment. And even though it is stressful to think about and to worry where the money for our bills will be coming from... if it comes... we also have a calm reassuring feeling that everything will work out and is happening to test our trust and faith in the Lord.

Josh has enjoyed every minute he has had home with us these last few weeks and the boys are loving it! We have really become much closer and been able to do a lot of things in the meantime while he looks for work. I don't know what the future holds for us. I'm not even certain any of our bills will get paid this month, but I am certain that we will survive this and I am certain that we have never had more faith in the Lord our whole marriage as we do now.

Thank you to everyone who has helped us and been here for us already! We love you all and will NOT forget all the help we've received.